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17.11.11, 1:25 PM
Amazing Things Happen To People Who Wait, Except Me
I'm tired of keeping my head up taking all the bullshit I can take and then smiling afterwards saying "It will all be okay, sooner or later". I wonder when sooner or later would come. It seems like it's taking forever. Please, whoever is controling my fate, make things better soon, I might end up blowing up into tiny pieces scattered on the street once I've reached my breaking point. But then, I just realized, I have no idea how far my breaking point is. I always find myself telling people "I've had enough" but a few minutes after that, I put my head in the chopper once again. I feel like a fool for telling people that I gave up on something when clearly I haven't. I can't even tell my friends anymore that I've given up because all I'd hear from them is that "You'll be back sooner or later". I never learn. I never get tired. I'm known to be the person who'd let things go, no matter how much it hurt me, I'd let it go. I'm easily manipulated, just tell me a few words I want to hear and I'm yours, and unfortunately, even if I'm aware of this, I can't control myself. I forgive people in a snap, no matter how fucked up they've made my life. I keep friends who have hurt me in the same circle as those who would never dare to make me cry. I come back to those people who are tested to leave when things get tough. I don't know what else to do. I'm a push-over, I'm not happy about it, but I don't know what to do to fix it... 15.11.11, 2:44 AM
Back In A Flash
I take people who left back because I believe that once we made things work out we can do it again, I just hope I don't get disappointed again, I hope that I won't be left shattered. 13.11.11, 5:11 PM
I do.
Since last Friday, we were at Astoria Plaza, their rooms were awesome. I didn't want to leave, I wanted to live there. The room was spaced out perfectly and had two bedrooms and two bathrooms, a hidden kitchen, a laundry area, a dining area and a huge living room, and of course, it had a bathtub! I am the certified BATHTUB QUEEN. Who wouldn't spend time in the tub whenever they check in in a hotel? I think all of us would! The wedding planning has been going on for a few months already and finally everyone stopped stressing about it yesterday. People had a blast. Everything was perfect. The day started with a scrumptious breakfast at the hotel cafe, buffet! Unfortunately, there wasn't any bacon served, bummer. Nevertheless, the food was great. I stuffed my face with all sorts of dishes as usual and had a hard time walking after the meal. We prepared for the wedding soon after getting back to the room. At about 2pm we hurried to the church and the wedding started at about 3:30pm, my Tita Dee looked stunning in her white gown, the blushing bride. All through out the wedding, I couldn't believe that my aunt and Kuya Carlo were getting married, it was sort of amusing because I knew that their relationship has gone through so many storms, drastic ups and downs and massive break-ups, but they made it through all that and were there kneeling in front of the altar, in front of the Almighty, saying their vows. Amazing. For some moment, I stopped believing in love. I stopped believing that people who claim to be in love can stay together, no matter what. But, yesterday, hearing those vows coming out of my aunts and kuya's mouths, a part of me started to believe again. Honestly, I felt like crying. It's awesome how when you look at two people staring at each other, you can tell when they're really into one another, those subtle smiles, the staring when the other one isn't looking and quickly looking away when they turn around, the small giggles, the raising of the eyebrows which symbolizes them agreeing about something or understanding the silence between them. Love can be seen, it's not something invisible. Some people say that love is like air, something you can feel but not something you can see, touch and taste, but it's not. You can see love through the actions of people. My aunt and kuya were in love and everyone can see that. 10.11.11, 3:35 PM
Unbelievable
Can you believe that blogger isn't blocked from our school's web browser? Way to go Mapua! With taht being said I guess it's obvious that I'm at school right now, bored to death. I already finished my exercise a few minutes ago and my professor isn't back from his meeting yet so I have no idea whether or not I can leave. I haven't eaten lunch yet so my tummy is angry at me right now, I promise to eat a lot after I get dismissed from this class.
Anyway, I can't think of a topic to talk about considering the fact that my brain is dead from all the codes I had to decipher. How about classroom happenings? Eh? I just get sick of the fact that in every classroom people put a label on you, well, it just doesn't happen in classrooms, I mean everywhere. In the office, at the arcade, at home, there's this particular adjective that is stuck to your back and you can't do anything to remove it. Well, maybe you can, but it would take a hell lot of time to be able to do that.
At home, I'm called the "Boarder". As if I don't even live there. I love spending my time outside of the house, yes, lakwatsera ako. And my mom makes a joke about it, she always says that I only go home when I'm hungry or when I don't have money left.
I need to cut this. My prof is back. Later... 7.11.11, 11:32 PM
Rock and ROLL
We met up at about 5 o'clock in the afternoon at Timezone, as usual and headed to Teriyaki Boy to eat. He payed for the Philly Cheese Steak Roll!! AWESOME. After having a wonderful meal, we headed to the department store to find a tie for him for my aunt's wedding this coming Saturday, unfortunately, nothing looked good. I never thought it was hard to look for a black and/or white, slim, necktie. Well, we'll go looking again sometime soon. I'm super excited for the wedding! I have an awesome outfit and I can't wait to sleep in the hotel and sit and relax in the tub. Hahahah! , 2:22 AM
Walk On By
Exhausted. That's how anyone would feel after walking around Quiapo for 5 hours. It was exhausting, yet satisfying. I was able to buy clothes for my aunt's wedding this coming November 12. CarAzie Wedding! Anyhow, my foot has been aching for a few nights already, alam mo yung feeling na may naipit na ugat? Yeah, that's how it feels and it hurts like hell. The whole day I've been wearing a foot supporter because of the aching.
Earlier today, we were talking about how our family loves shopping at Quiapo and/or Divisoria. YES, I'M A VERY CHEAP PERSON. For me, it doesn't really matter where your clothes come from, whether your accessories are made of plastic or real gold (as long as it doesn't give me an allergic reaction). It's all about how you wear it. Keep in mind that as long as you wear clothes the right way, it doesn't matter where you bought it.
Before leaving for our shopping escapade, of course, I had to take a photo because the lighting was awesome!
Today wasn't just about shopping. Our family had a late and early celebration for my and Matt's birthday. Although, just like any other family get together, my brother does something memorable. Good thing this time we weren't able to get it on tape, or else.
My aunts give the best presents in the world! I wasn't able to take a photos of the other gifts, because they were given to me last October 20. My Tita Myleen gave me "Ugly" gifts this year. She gave me an "Ugly" journal and a stationery set. It was so cute. It matches the doll I received from them last time they went to the USA, Ox (I don't have a picture of Ox though).
Do you see that green bunny with one eye? That's how my stuffed toy, Ox look like.
We went home soon after we ate sansrival cake and played with ipads.
A day becomes awesome when you spend it with people who are filled with "awesomeness". 4.11.11, 3:15 AM
We'll Make It Through
As most of the people who see me notice, I'm not close with tons of girls. Yeah, I do have "girlfriends" although, I don't get to hang with them that often. For the past few months, there are three people who have been making my days "fun-filled". It's too cliche to say that "I have the best friends in the entire world" but I do have the best friends in the entire world. And the best part is, it doesn't matter if they're guys and I'm a girl. They don't "take it easy" on me, as if I'm a wimp when it comes to video games, or eating, but at the same time, they prove that chivalry ain't dead. This post is somehow out of the blue, I just really wanted to share that not all guys are assh*les. That there are good guys out there, sometimes, girls just have to take notice of the little things that matter instead of filling their heads with fantasies about douchebags. I just sort of got irritated about how my twitter feed is filled with updates about girls ranting about how there's an assh*le who took her for granted or broke her heart therefore she has all the right in the world to say that all guys are the same. If you think about it, that's just a stupid way of looking at things, so, to put things in perspective, it doesn't mean that all guys are the same just cause one wasn't manly enough to treat you like a lady (or maybe you gave him a reason to treat you badly). I believe in equal treatment, I mean, if I can carry my bag, there's no point of asking a guy to carry it for me. Girls, stop being prima donnas. Yeah, the feeling of having a guy open a door for you or a guy giving up his seat for you is flattering, but us girls should know how far to take things. We shouldn't forget that we can do things for ourselves as well, we shouldn't bitch around when things don't go our way because guys, even though they're expected to give way for girls, have rights too. I play video games, yes. I see couples "play" video games as well, and I find it hilarious when the girl doesn't know how to play and she gets frustrated when the guy doesn't let her win. But when the guy gives her the round she complains about how he's "taking it easy" on her. GUYS, GIRLS ARE TOO COMPLICATED. So if you don't want her to nag about things, from time to time, it won't hurt you to let her have her way, secretly. I read this note on Facebook about how some girls have guy friends who they complain to about their crappy boyfriend/ ex-boyfriend and starts saying that all guys are the same, don't they realize that THAT particular guy friend they're ranting to is a guy as well? Isn't it obvious that there are guys out there who'd actually treat you properly? Even if it's as simple as listening to you talk badly about their race. Learn to appreciate the guy friends you have. Just because one guy left you disappointed, doesn't mean every single guy will. |
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